it's terrifying to realize

that you are no longer a whisper, a lingering thought i wrung out until it was breathless. instead- you are here, you are no longer a goodbye. you terrify me, because as long as i have loved you, i have never grasped the knowledge of this side of you. but once i do, i'll absorb it all, so far down into the fibers of my heart... and i'll inhale your permanence, so i can breathe easy, dream easy, love easy.